Some Quick hits

- Wedding day has passed - life has officially started over. Feels good.
- Fun weekend ahead - OAR is rolling through town. Looking forward to a complete and utter freak out. needed.
- Just bought the new blackberry... like christmas morning... Marty - how's the 1986 Pearl treating you? hope my phone call doesn't blow your phone up....
- Amsterdam was good - been better if it were with friends and for fun
- Parents are officially out - Michigan for 3 months. Bye rents.
- Little Renny's bachelor party is set - Vegas in August.... naughty time.

bye

06.16.07

Well its here. JUne 16th, 2007 - the day i was looking foward to for over an year (thought about for years).Planning, preparing etc for Mexico. And where am I? Portland, Or. Seems surreal - wasnt sure how i was going ot react or feel when it finally came around. Still really not sure how I feel about it. I guess it helped a bit that I just got back from Amsterdam last night - distraction for at least the week.
I know no one else feels either way about it cause they arent dealing with it but its fucked up. This was a giant life changing experience I was supposed go through - and now im not. its not like a vacation to mexico was cancelled - it was marriage. Dont get me wrong - deep down im glad it didnt happen with her and its not her that i believe im hung up on - i think its the the whole idea of getting married, starting a family - growing up. I've always wanted that and to be that close with someone at the time you thought was the one - was pretty intense.
What does a guy do instead on the day he was supposed to began a new life? good question - i dont have any of my close friends in town which is really difficult. I have had some work friends tell me they'll take me out and have drinks tonight etc - but is that what I want? not really. i mean Ill probably be going out but its not like im gong tohave this deep conversation about life with a couple girls wanting to go the Dixie or something. People who really dont know me. But that's what I got.
So I think im going to bail out on my own for most of the day - dissappear for a while. Then come home - and tonight have about 15 superficial conversations all while all would of loved to do was have 1...



A wise young friend from college used to say - "better days, brighter rays, fuller sails, fatter rails...." couldn't agree more

Bye Friends

Headed out of the country tomorrow on a well needed trip. A lot of work to do but will make sure I have some personal time. I'll leave you all with this quote a friend of mine sent to me last week. the last line says it all..


"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt."

For the children...

Niketown 5k this weekend - good times, good friends!