Miss Me? Yeah me neither....

Check out those calves!!

Over a month since we last spoke my darling - and how are you? Im wonderful thank you for asking... So lets stop the chit chat and get right to it... not that - come on now - im not that easy...

Basic Update -
Summer is about over which is both positive and negative. The good: football, snowboarding, the holidays. The bad: every woman seems to disappear, shorts will be soon packed away, the holidays...

Work -
Going fast as ever. Seems liek every new day brings a new nightmare. But if it were boring I'd probably quit and have to move in with the rents. Although my patience, ive been noticing, is beginning to wear a little thin. My filter has left and I have been speaking my mind on certain subjects to certain people and its probably not the smartest - but i just cant stand cop-outs and when/how/and whom they use them with... enough said

Shelter -
Going ot wait on house shopping. My mexican advisor warns against it with recent marketplace flucuations. My personal take is why would I decided to buy a pice of crap house 20 miles away from the city/work just so I can own something. Id be miserable and pissed off. Living DT is the greatest - I absolutely love my place and location.

Family -
Parents actually get back from the UP this week - havent seen the rents in about 4 months or so. Good to have them back. Although my mom and everyone is already all over me about having a new girlfriend. This should get annoying pretty quick. But at least i can get sunday dinners again...

Purchases -
Bought new Mt Bike last weekend but of course hurt my back lifting and havent had a chacne to ride it - cool. Bought a Wii gaming system - friggn fun as hell. no doubt there will be some late nights on that bird.

Ok now the stuff you wanted to know - Love Life -
........... yeah thats about it. Its been a good summer - met a lot of new people, had many a blurry night and a few "mishaps" here and there but nothing solid to talk about. Im ok with that overall except for 1 thing. I need to step up - I get so shy and locked down everytime I meet or see a hot chick - i will be alone for the rest of my life. Perfect example - saw a hot girl the other night but so too scared to talk with her - Sam stepped up and started it - next thing you know i had her number before she left. It was very difficult once the ice has been broken. Not sure what my problem is but i need to get over it. i will - i have to.

The Future -
Renny pookers wedding this weekend in seattle - good to see the boys again and celebrate some nuptials.
Some Ducks games hopefully - stupid i dont go with them that close
Possible hawaii trip for new years with the martins - 3rd wheel anyone?


so thats it for the time being. peace out and remember - monkey see and monkey do

Its amazing what a run can do for you. I had a horrific day at work uncovering what will become the bain of my existence through Holiday. I wont get into details but lets just say because we have no accountability within our organization people can do whatever they want. The problem is that peope can be outright stupid and and make life hell for others based on their stupidity. good times.

So after a delicious steak from the grill - I cleanedup a bit and decided i needed to go for a run and clear my head of work. Its amazing how a run and some good music can take you away from a hell you were in only a hour ago. It was about 80 degrees, light breeze on the water, and the sun setting over the city - listening to music. Music that can take you to a place you've been, want to go or only can dream of living in.

Some thoughts that went through my head
- Portland is a beautiful city. Not many places you can walk out your front door and run on the water at dusk as the sun sets.
- Life isnt that bad. Things are pretty good and we/I tend to forget that
- Work is work and it will throw challenges your way - its up to you how you roll with it and what you want out of it
- Good friends, Good family, Good job = Good life.

Couple of songs highly recommended
-City on Down - OAR live from Maidison Square Garden
- City of Blinding Lights - U2
- Positive Vibes - Kottonmouth Kings

Ok - its a long one - sorry - peace out

Obesity Watch 2007

Been a while since I have posted. Not sure why but thought I'd start with a fat watch '07. Weighing in at 172 this morning. Still estimating at 40% body fat...... hefty

Happy July!

Excuse me - what the f#ck happened to June? Seriously - I dont remember the start of summer at all? Its amazing how the time flies these days. But now that it's July its time to "hunker down" i think on the Summer. I dont want the rest of the summer to pass and all I have to remember it by is a empty bank account and an extra 15lbs.

A couple events already in the hopper -
Aug 10th - Little Rennys Bach Party in Sin City.
Aug 27th (i think) - Hood to Coast. kinda regreting i signed up for this again but oh well.
Sept 7th - Renny finally becomes Erick Chapman

So this week during the holiday will be time for reflection and goal setting for the rest of the Summer. I find myself adrift if I dont have some targets so its best I lock those up before I end up a complete and utter nightmare.

I will share a few of these when I figure them out but for hte most part they will be personal - so deal with it.

Some Quick hits

- Wedding day has passed - life has officially started over. Feels good.
- Fun weekend ahead - OAR is rolling through town. Looking forward to a complete and utter freak out. needed.
- Just bought the new blackberry... like christmas morning... Marty - how's the 1986 Pearl treating you? hope my phone call doesn't blow your phone up....
- Amsterdam was good - been better if it were with friends and for fun
- Parents are officially out - Michigan for 3 months. Bye rents.
- Little Renny's bachelor party is set - Vegas in August.... naughty time.

bye

06.16.07

Well its here. JUne 16th, 2007 - the day i was looking foward to for over an year (thought about for years).Planning, preparing etc for Mexico. And where am I? Portland, Or. Seems surreal - wasnt sure how i was going ot react or feel when it finally came around. Still really not sure how I feel about it. I guess it helped a bit that I just got back from Amsterdam last night - distraction for at least the week.
I know no one else feels either way about it cause they arent dealing with it but its fucked up. This was a giant life changing experience I was supposed go through - and now im not. its not like a vacation to mexico was cancelled - it was marriage. Dont get me wrong - deep down im glad it didnt happen with her and its not her that i believe im hung up on - i think its the the whole idea of getting married, starting a family - growing up. I've always wanted that and to be that close with someone at the time you thought was the one - was pretty intense.
What does a guy do instead on the day he was supposed to began a new life? good question - i dont have any of my close friends in town which is really difficult. I have had some work friends tell me they'll take me out and have drinks tonight etc - but is that what I want? not really. i mean Ill probably be going out but its not like im gong tohave this deep conversation about life with a couple girls wanting to go the Dixie or something. People who really dont know me. But that's what I got.
So I think im going to bail out on my own for most of the day - dissappear for a while. Then come home - and tonight have about 15 superficial conversations all while all would of loved to do was have 1...



A wise young friend from college used to say - "better days, brighter rays, fuller sails, fatter rails...." couldn't agree more

Bye Friends

Headed out of the country tomorrow on a well needed trip. A lot of work to do but will make sure I have some personal time. I'll leave you all with this quote a friend of mine sent to me last week. the last line says it all..


"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt."

For the children...

Niketown 5k this weekend - good times, good friends!

Obesity Watch 2007

Good news - up to 170 as of this weekend! Stay tuned for breaking news.

Just a small Rant

You whats really annoying? People who think they know you and what know what you need. I've noticed another social norm that the majority continues to believe - that once you break up with someone - you will instantly whore around and are incapable of immediately having another realtionship. What ive gotten from multiple people is that I need 3-4 months before i can handle dating again. That is the timline that has been given to me... i guess everyone else knows what's best for me - god forbid I figure that out for myself.

So why? why do i have to wait 3 months? Will I actually be that different then - from today? So I guess if I meet someone I really like in the next 3 months I just need to hope and pray they will still be there when Im more "mature" and "capable" of dating someone seriously. super.

So far - people other than myself have told me that its abnormal to be single and 30 & Im incapable of having a relationship until August... Lets round up and make it Labor Day

Truffle Shuffle

Went to the gym today and weighed myself for the first time in over a month. Came in at 168. seriously? - i was 168 in 5th grade..... i think im manarexic.

Global Monkey

Found out yesterday that my boss got me approved to go to Amsterdam - EMEA Nike Headquarters. Stoked. Actually taking it as a big honor that I was invited. Been working on this project now for 7 months on this project and the Euro's got wind so I will be going over there for a week to talk about it as well as discuss how we do retail in the states. Never been over seas so im pretty fired up. I guess it was a good thing I almost married a whore in mexico - forced me to get my passport.
I wonder I will end up at a hash bar with boss..... Stupid if i dont at least try. They have a pretty serious red light district - dont they? yeah buddy.....

Just thinking...

What if you never met your "soul mate"?
What if you went through life without getting married?
Why do we as a society stipulate you have to live your life with someone else?

There's even a point or age where you are looked different upon if you dont have a signifigant other. I'll be honest - i was probably a part of that majority prior to being single. Now that I'm not involved - I'm trying figure out who is actually putting the pressure on me to find someone new - society/friends or if you look deep enough - is it myself?

Remind me again why I'm not here?

Easy like Sunday Morning

So as I said in the begining - this would be a true account of everything I have to deal with now that Im single etc.. And considering no one is really reading this anyways - its all good.

So sunday's suck. What are sundays for? family time, relaxation, preparing for the week ahead etc.. I used to love Sundays - always slept in a little bit longer than normal, maybe hit the gym, bum around around the house and cap it off with a big dinner and some good tv. Well now I cant stand them. Its tough working through it by yourself when you're not used to it. Every other day of the week there are things going on - work, happy hour, etc but ill be honest - the number 1 thing I miss are my old Sundays.

Im sure there will be better Sundays ahead and Ill totally forget about these but when you're in this position - you dont think about next Sunday you think about this one. And this one sucked.

Cinco de mayo - Spanish for Cinco de May

Big day yesterday - cinco de mayo, kentucky derby, nba playoffs, and of course the De La Hoya-Mayweather fight. Figured it would be a good start to the summer and single life to have a few people over for chips, dips, & tequila. I ordered the fight and decided to finish it out by ordering 100 chicken wings...mmmmmm Much to my surprise one of the "special sauces" this month was bacon/terriyaki - DONE!
Also some back notes - I have been home sick for 3 days with possibly the bird flu or sars at this point. So going into the night i was heavily medicated and hadnt eaten in 2 days. Some things to look forward to - random cold sweats, forced to take tequila shots on a 2 day empty stomach, passing out in front everyone. So i was fired up!

A few highlights/lowlights from the night -

- My fridge randomly broke. 2 hours later we realized the reset button was on an outlet near the counter - wierd
- Mid party I had to take out the trash cause there was a dirty diaper seeping into the aroma
- Mid party someone informed me that one of my dish towels was used to clean up baby puke
- 4 bottles of tequila (all shots), 1 goose, 1 jack, 5 cases of corona's, 1 case of dos equis - done
- Buxman was so wasted he started humping my leg infront of my boss and my boss's boss...
- Luke threw a soaked paper towel roll to another condo (not sure why) - missed and is now on someone else blacony - im sure ill be evicted soon
- A former "Little House on the Prairie" child actor and I took shots till his wife made him leave

So all and all it was a good night. Felt a little wierd to have my first hosting gig all on my own but none the less - a good night. I just hope I can kick this monkey pox before I head to Seattle this weekend for the Yankee-Mariners game...

Welcome Home

Anyone there? Seriously.... I have a friend who recently began reposting on his blog so thought it might be a good idea for myself. Like him - I just recently went through a small life changing event and what better way to deal with it than publish my thoughts and inner self fears online for anyone to read. But most importantly - there is just way to much in this head not share with the world. The world needs me - im like Superman... except obese and without the super-human strength..but i like where full body spandex...

I'm the slender panther-like guy on the left.

So what happened? Well my girlfriend of 6 years, a year of which engaged, decided that she was better off on her own. Just over a month ago she called off the wedding and moved out. Slightly life changing you can say.

Still working at Nike & still living in the Pearl - no sense in being single and moving out of downtown before the summer starts. Also had a few more friends get out of town. Big Marty moved the family unit down south to the Bay and Heeter is either in Eugene or Seattle - couldn't tell you for sure.

So that's where im at. A whole new direction from the last time i had posted. My hope is that this blog will give some insight to this life i lead. A journel of sorts - of man who just turned 30 and got thrown a curve ball in life. It will be a honest account of what goes through my head and what i will go through in life. Shouldn't be too boring..... at least i hope not